skinnybell

I’m getting very frustrated with so many things.  I’ve even had to fight the idea of continuing to try to lose weight.  The price of food has gone up so much that we can hardly afford to keep buying healthier foods.  I’ve had a bad muscle in my neck for about 2 months but praise God that is finally getting better now that I am going to a Chiropractor who understands how to work with fibro people.  Since Sandy died I have had flair ups with my fibro every few days.  Some of the flare ups are major and some are minor.  I’m so tired of sewing these dresses for Cassy’s upcoming wedding.  Jim’s mom had surgery, then we had to have Sandy put to sleep and then Jennifer had surgery….life just seems like it has been one thing after another and I never get time to exercise at all and with all that has been going on I haven’t been eating the best and I’ve gained 2 pounds.  I’m so tired and so frustrated I just don’t even know if I want to get back on track.  I feel like I should find another part time job but if I do that then I can’t study up and prepare for the bible study I am suppose to lead in October.  I’m so frustrated and right now I feel like life has ceased to be enjoyable.

I lost my Sandy bear on Monday.  We had to have him put to sleep.  I’m really sad and I haven’t been following my diet and I’ve been vegging because I’m sad so I haven’t gotten any exercise either.

 Maybe next week I will get life back on track.

Well this weekend starts our first reenactment of the season.  I didn’t think I was going to have to alter my clothes yet but then I got sick and lost 7 pounds in one week so guess what?  Yep I put on my clothes that are supposed to be form fitting and well after 17 pounds loss they aren’t form fitting.  Sooooo.  Well I’m rushing to get them altered so they will fit me this weekend.  I had my husband help me make another duct tape dummy and wow!!!! the difference between the one he helped me make last year and the one we just made.   17 pounds makes a big difference.

I tried to put a picture to my post but I don’t think it worked.  Oh well.  I told Jim I want to keep all my Duct tape Dummy’s until I finish losing weight so I can see the change and keep motivated.

 Back to the mill stone.  Lots to do before this weekend.

Well I know it isn’t weigh in day yet but I can tell you I have lost bunches.  It wasn’t fun though.  Saturday was my anniversary and it was a wonderful day.  Sunday we went to church and I suggested we go eat chinese after church.  As we are driving, I’m thinking this was a bad idea cause of my trying to lose weight.  But I thought I would just catch up this week.  Well….by  4:00 Sunday night I was sicker than sick.  I don’t ever remember being so sick.  I either had food poisoning or I had a virus.  Not a good way to lose weight.

Today is my brother in law Frank’s colon cancer surgery.  He is scheduled to have surgery at 1:00 Houston time.  Please keep him in your prayers.  Also keep my sister  Bonnie in your prayers.  I feel so bad that I wasn’t able to go down there to be with her but since I just started this part time job I wasn’t able to go. 

I will be posting updates to all as soon as I get them.

Gods Blessings and thank you for your prayers

Debbie Feavel

God whispers in your soul and speaks to your mind. Sometimes when you don’t have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at you.

Well I have been on a new supplement for 2 weeks now and I can’t say enough.  I have fibro and by the end of last year I thought I was going to end up in a wheel chair because the pain in my legs and the almost inability to use them to walk was so bad.  But through prayer that got better.  Still I spent most of my time in a chair and taking 3 different medication one being a narcotic pain pill and still being in pain.  I was taking 3 to 4 pain pills a day and still being in pain.  I quit taking cholesterol medications and was still taking 3  pain pills a day but I could be active again.  I started working on losing weight and trying to get a little bit of walking in.  Just gentle walking around the house.  But wow!!!!!

 Two weeks ago our Pastor gave me an intro package of Max Gxl and within 3 days I had more energy and was doing so much more.  I was even starting to work outside starting seeds and working with flowers on the porch.  I even wanted to go shopping and walking!  I couldn’t believe it.  I told him to order a months worth for me.  By the time I started the 2ND week I realized I was hardly taking any pain pills any more.  I even shopped all day with my mother in law and while I was really worn out and my muscles that weren’t use to it were pretty whooped, after a day of rest I was up and going again, only slowed down a little for a sinus head ache that lasted all day.  That day alone would have wiped me out for 3 or 4 days IF I was able to make it all day shopping.  But not only that I went grocery shopping later that day.  And had been busy going out of town for a 3 hour drive and gone to 2 graduations (one being in the nose bleed section of a stadium that I never could have been able to get up those stairs in the past) and then 3 hours home the next day.

 Today, I am on the first day of week 3 and I was able to do a step aerobic tape and am still ready to live life.  I will go get an anniversary card for my hubby (our anniversary is tomorrow) mail a package of MAX GXL to my sister because she is as bad as I was. Go see my mother in law and maybe do some more low impact aerobics, go to church to do some work and run the overhead for music practice and cook.  I could have never done that much a few weeks ago and it would have been impossible to do any of  it 2 or 3 months ago.

 Can you tell I’m happy!  It is great to be alive again and feel like I felt 10 years ago.  I seriously have not felt this good in 10 years.  Thank you Jesus for the healing you’ve given me and Thank you Pastor White for giving me .the MAX GXL

Well today was a tough one.  I found out my son and the girl he has been with for almost 5 years (the mother of my granddaughter) are spliting up.  Of course my first thought was how he is feeling but then my second thought was how will that affect me as far as my granddaughter is concerned.  I can’t imagine Christmas without her here.  I’m feeling really sad now and could use prayer.

On the bright side, I didn’t fall for my first instinct in the past, which was to eat.  I did eat what I thought was more today than I usually do but I still stayed within my allotted calories for the day.  That was a great thing.

Food Log

Well I got so excited about dieting and actually felt like I could walk some (I have Fibro so that was a great thing compared to just being able to sit in the chair all winter) so I walked some the first day and the second.  Well the third day I ate badly so I really really walked (an old habit from my days of being a skinny minnie) and the next day I walked while I prayed and then again later.  So it was way too much.  I was in so much pain last night.  I figure I better lay off for a day or two or I might make it harder to walk for exercise.

Bad day today!  Before I started this weight loss thing, I scheduled a brunch with a friend who I hadn’t seen in a while.  I ate my normal thing.  Now I’m fighting hunger not to go over on my calories.  Doesn’t it just figure when I decided to lose weight all sorts of things happen.  We went to church last night and Pastor asked Jim and I if we would go to dinner after church on Sunday with them and another couple because the three ladies are the ladies ministry leaders and we needed to get together and talk about Ladies Ministry stuff.  Guess where we are going?  Asia Buffet.  Not a good place when you are trying to lose weight!  Oh My Oh My!  This week is going to be a hard on to stay on track.  I know I need to learn to have control.  That is an important issue with weight loss as well.  I know I made some bad choices today.  I could have done better.  But the Asia Buffet is a hard one to be healthy on.  GRRRRR

Exercise Log

I just started doing the food jounal.  This is my second day.  Do they really think I can eat that many calories in healthy food?  I don’t think I’ve ever eaten that many calories except maybe at Christmas or Thanksgiving or a pot luck at church.  What do you do about something like that?  I wish I could join the WW on line thing so I could try the points and see if I measure up there.   I’m so confused. 

Food Log

Exercise Log